Ch 9: There's Nothing Scarier than the Unknown

I am so pissed off at myself for  forgetting the most important documents. I had it laid on top of the table earlier for me to remember to grab it but too much going on in my head that I literally blanked-out! Now I had to turn around and head back to Blue Eyes house. 

While I'm only 5 miles away from the house, I was hoping that Blue Eyes would be in the bathroom still so that I could just sneak in. I was driving as fast as I can and then when I got closer to the house, I slow-down and turned my lights-out so that Blue Eyes will not see my car coming through his driveway. I turned the engine off, got out of the car and slowly did the moonwalk towards the front door.

Luckily, I still have the house key. I snuck in and grabbed my documents, and for some reason Blue Eyes were still in the bathroom. (Lady Luck was with me that night. Wooh!) I ran back to my car with my documents in my hands and turned the engine on. This time I did not rave my engine. I backed out from the driveway and headed towards yet to my unknown tomorrow.

There's nothing scarier than the unknown but if I don't leave Blue Eyes, could the 'unknown'  be any worse than staying with him with a third party interfering our relationship? I was trying to gather my strength together and tried to overcome the decision I just made. I just didn't see myself being with him for a long time. I also didn't want to deal with his crap anymore and I believe I have made the right decision.


It was already 10:30pm and for the first time in my life, I was driving alone in the dark heading towards West Coast [2500K miles]. I didn't know how to handle my emotion at the time. I think I may have felt the profound sadness, defeat and betrayal, let alone the unknown state of my car. I didn't know if it'll survive for 4 days or so crossing the huge land of the United States.


I was weeping while driving. Yeah, Literally I broke down like someone just bashed my bum so hard. like I said it was the mixed emotion of leaving Blue Eyes because I cared for him but at the same time I hated him for cheating on me, and plus the thought of my car getting breakdown in the middle of nowhere during my runaway. Oh how much I was praying that night that it was not going to happen. 


While still weeping and driving, I questioned myself,  "Am I really doing this? Do I really have the courage of driving alone in the dark all by myself?" It was ridiculously odd situation because I didn't know what can happen during this transition and I know there was no hope of reclaiming my relationship with Blue Eyes due to the fact that there were so many hard evidence that indeed he was cheating on me despite of his claims that he didn't do it.

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Ch 6: A Repugnunt and Disrespectful Bee-yotch

I didn't ruined Blue Eyes's mood that night so I have kept my mouth shut! I was suspecting that he was screwing around while I was gone for 3 months.

Finally we arrived home and the house were so comfy nice and cleaned. Fragrance Candles were lit, the environment just felt so different! Before I could settle down, Blue Eyes grabbed me and kissed me passionately like he has been missing me.

I know, I know it's normal to miss someone who has gone for a long time but I know Blue Eyes that well. He is the type of person who really doesn't know how to show his feelings; example for that is when I gave him a hug each time he comes home from golfing he would say that I smothered him so much. For him to act like that, it was weird and very suspicious to me.


The following day which is Thursday morning, we were discussing that I would like to go back to California since my previous employer will hire me back and that they are expecting me soonest. The planned was for him to drive me all the way to California which is about 2500 miles and he would fly back to Florida. Once I would get settled in, Blue Eyes will fly back to California to be with me.

I immediately purchased a one way ticket for Blue Eyes while he was gone to play golf that day. I also started packing my stuff. While in the bathroom, I grabbed my hair brush but before I could use it to stroke my hair, there were hundreds of long Blondie hair (It wasn't Blue Eyes's hair because it was very long, and of course it wasn't mine either. I have a long pitch black hair. It belongs to another woman). My suspicion of Blue Eyes screwing  around grew more at this time. Still, I couldn't prove it yet. I still need more facts or evidence.

I went to our bedroom to pack all my clothes and guess what? My clothes that I rarely use(You know nice stuff that we save for the best) were hanging in my wardrobe for many months was nowhere to be found! So I open the hamper to see if it was there and yup it was in the hamper and it has this malodorous odor. I don't know if malodorous word would be a right term to use for super stinky body odour. 

I was super duper disgusted and shocked beyond belief! Who the heck would come to our house and uses my belongings while I was gone! This person is very repugnant and very disrespectful! I've found 3 weird things since I got home (First was a cigarettes butts inside my car. Second, a blond hair in my hairbrush. Third, my clothes were being used. Wow! I was speechless and can't find the right words for this!) Blue Eyes cheated on me! 


Thursday evening came and Blue Eyes came home from golfing. Like any other day, he was normal like the way he is. In other words, he is dry in terms of showing his emotion or feelings. I would like to confront him right away of the unusual things that I have found but I bit my tongue. My biggest fear that he did not contact me at all while I was in the Philippines that he could be cheating on me became increasingly clear. I was pretty sure he was sleeping around while I was gone. We were supposed to get married when I get back.

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